no IDEA

Have no idea where life is headed. I am thinking of responding to my Prof offer of doing PhD. But not sure what to tell him. I would like to say no, but have no no no no no idea, what will I do after that. I feel like a HANGED computer processor, trying to process to much information at a time, and as a result, showing error and not responding.

I had this idea when I was around 19, that by the time I complete college and m done with first couple of years of job, I would have earned so much that I would not have to work any more. The problem is, studying till the age of 27 was not included in the plan. And its difficult to digest things which are stupid.

Also, whenever I call friends in India, I firstly realize I miss them like hell. And secondly, I also realize that I am one of the 3 friends left who haven't got married/engaged. Since I always thought the other two were kind of weird, I find it difficult to enjoy their company. Also, I have concluded that men does require a company of nice women, be it mother, sister, friend or a  girl friend to stay sane. The problem is I am not sure, what nice means to me right now !