On love

Seeing all the people around me in love, made me think if I was ever going to be in one. Will I ever experience the feeling where I would like to think about nothing but someone special. Will I have a chance to have someone who could make my day brighter, merely by a smile ?

I have liked some girls, but than have been too shy to talk with them. Whom I have talked, have invariably helped me to exhaust any desire to have a life-partner. Many of my friends fell in love with the class mates and are happily married now. I was kind of love-guru in college, putting knowledge from the novels into some usefulness. I know its not difficult to get a girl to like you, if she just knows that you like her and care for her. Girls mind might be most difficult to understand, but they are most simple when comes to love. I too liked couple of girls in college. But could not talk with them.  Moreover I have this idea that making a girl fall in love is not right. Love should just happen. If one has to go through all the rigours of showing it, then perhaps its not actually there. May be I should have been better off dropping that idea and taking the advice which i give to all the friends: just show her that you like her and care for her. She'll be yours forever. 

I have not been able to understand my mind, and to hope to find someone else of opposite sex who could, is  in itself a daunting task. Still, the idea of having someone to talk with is nice, only if the partner is worth talking. Analyzing the persons whom I have been attracted to in past, I wanted to draw a list of minimum things which I expect in the partner, The list reads as follows,

1. Education: I do not have any special requirement for the education, but she has to be intelligent (Only thing I hope is she should be able to understand English). One does not need to be educated for being intelligent and vice-versa.  My idea of love has been mostly associated with a great mind/character, rather than looks/body. 

2. Nature. I could be intolerable sometimes (actually many a times). So she should be able to deal with it (I know thats a lot to ask for). Should be open to joint family.  Alternatively, I too should be able to tolerate her, despite of the things which I would not like about her (I do not believe in perfect person). She should be a worthy friend. Not too religious. 

3. I have always had a feeling that most of the girls have a very good sense of right and wrong. Hope to have that in the special one too, to keep me from doing something wrong.

4. She should have some hobby (I often wonder how people live without hobbies), be that reading, writing, watching movies, tv, dancing or anything. But should have one.

5. Looks. Dont know what to expect. I am no Gregery Peck myself, but would like to have some one with brown/dark skin ( am i being racist ?). I like Kajol and Vidhya Balan over Katrina.

6. Family: Oops..dont know either. Would ideally like to marry a rich princess who is the only daughter. So, that I do not have to work  and can enjoy my non-paying hobbies :P.

Well well, the list turned out to be quite short with not very specific ideas. Perhaps, I am not sure about what I want (just got the thought that i should also make a list of things which I have to offer, but that some other time), but hope when the right person comes along, I have sense to recognise her and courage/ability to make her fall for me. Only thing I hope is I do not select someone not-right for me out of desperation.  I would prefer to be alone for the life, rather then ending up with the wrong person (non-compatible should be the better word).  My friends have often told me that in love, mind and intelligence do not matter. But to me they seem to be the most important part, the only part which I can still love when we are old and physical beauty is no more there. 

I hope to fall in love with some worthy  mind and prove that intelligent-love is not just another oxymoron.